When there is much uncertainty life can feel like your in the middle of a stormy sea not really knowing which way to go. There can be so many options in terms of what to do next, but they only make your situation seem even more precarious because you have no idea of which one to take. As well as this, what you thought you knew about making good decisions seems to of fallen by the wayside, no longer seeming relevent in your current situation. Therefore, day by day the storm only seems to get worse, and the way to travel seems to become more unclear. But as I write this I realise that the only way through this storm is to focus on the "hear and now", and look for God in the uncertain times. Also, I have to remember that visions for ministry do not form overnight, they take time to develop, even years.

When I read this I realise that this would be my answer to anyone who came to me with the same problem, but this is so much easier to advise than to live out. I guess seasons like this come to us all, where we are not ourselves and cannot apply the promises we proclaim to others to ourselves. But I would add that they are probably the most formative, because perhaps it's only in these times that we become open to the changes that God needs to make in us.

The End.

Lately there has been some endings in my life, only a few months ago i left Bible College and a great multi cultural community which gave me a sense of belonging. Community like this can challenge, but it also can enrich to the point of broadening ones horizons and false one to deal with prejudice you were never aware you had. And only recently, the possibility of a relationship has gone, even though it was the right thing to happen (we were never really going the same way in life) there is a loss of hope to deal with.
Both of these situations highlight the need for transition, from 'what was' to 'what is'. But i ask myself: What is the best way to do that? To cope with the loss of college I've been working 50-55 hour weeks, telling myself that it's good to keep busy, but in reality it was only to avoid facing the loss of community. Also, there were other things i was able to avoid by hiding behind being busy, in particular the fact that the potential relationship with a very special lady was never going to work. So, because of this act of avoidance I'm now facing disappointment that i should of been dealing with months ago. But hindsight is a wonderful thing, because this was not easy to see only a few months ago, so i cannot be to hard on myself about this. But the question remains: what is the best way to approach transition? Well, i would say that there is not an optimum way of doing this because change by its very nature is difficult, when something important in life in finishes it takes time to find ones feet, and find that stability. Maybe to make a transition in a healthy way is to gradually accept your 'new reality' when one feels they have dealt with 'what was'.This, in my opinion would avoid going from the other extreme of avoidance which is to deal with everything head on and straightaway.